Emotional attachment.

Throughout our lives, we interact and form relationships with many people; obviously with the people we become close to, we develop a level of emotional attachment to them. How do we know, though, when this emotional attachment becomes too much? Not that it's a bad thing to be close to people, but what if you get to the point with someone in which they mean so much to you that having any sort of conflict with them seriously stresses you out and makes you constantly concerned that they will no longer be a part of your life? Or that whenever they've expressed being close to other friends, you feel somewhat jealous of them, sure that they must be better people than you and that the relationship you have with this person is not as strong or important to the other person as their relationship with their other friends? It's obviously not a healthy mindset to have, if you're constantly worrying...but what should you do in order to reassure yourself that you're not in danger of losing one of the closest people in your life? Would it help to tell the other person how you're feeling, or would it be useless, since the issues you're having all have to do with your own emotions and feelings rather than any actions they're taking?

Also, what happens when someone you really care about seems to change after not seeing/talking to them for a while? I mean, I know people change...they're not always going to be the same exact person you know for the entire period of time that you know them, but if they go from being someone you're really close with and love spending time with to someone who seems bored and not really into hanging out with you, has a completely different attitude from how they used to, and just make you feel like you're really insignificant and not an important part of their life anymore, is it really worth trying to maintain the friendship?

I hope this entry made sense and that you were all able to follow what I was saying; I know I used a bunch of run-on, rambling sentences. >.< I'm sorry for that, I just really wasn't sure how else to phrase them.

Time management (or lack thereof)

Why can I never manage my time well? I always feel like I'm doing the wrong things at the wrong time. Last night, when I came back to my dorm after hanging out with my friend, I had the urge to work on my story instead of going to sleep, so I did, despite the fact I had to wake up for work. This led me to be really tired while I was working in the library, so when I came back to my dorm afterwards, I went to sleep instead of studying for my psych test. And now, instead of studying for my psych test, or packing because I'm going back to the city tomorrow night for Thanksgiving break, I'm sitting here writing this blog.

I don't know why I'm so terrible at getting myself to do the things I need to do when I actually need to do them. kasjdksaldjals. I really need to stop procrastinating...it's such a bad habit, but it's so hard to break. I guess it's just really difficult for me to focus on things at the moment, because I'm really happy for a number of reasons. I'm going home for break tomorrow, I get to see my friends back home and my cats, my mom and I are celebrating Thanksgiving with my aunt and uncle this year (which, I think, is the first year this has happened), Christmas season is pretty much here and it's my favorite time of year, I've figured out what to get one of my closest friends for Christmas, and I am going to be able to enjoy delicious food in the city instead of this unappetizing dining hall food that has probably damaged my internal organs. The prospect of all these things is all so exciting and overwhelming and it's just hard for me to be like "Okay, put all these really awesome things out of your mind and focus on your psych test tomorrow." I know if I don't study, though, I'll regret it, especially when I get my grade...so I'll just have to do the best I can, even if I may have major concentration issues.

By the way, if any of you are curious about my blog's username...it's "JD is my superman," and it refers to the TV show Scrubs. In the theme song, one of the lyrics is "I'm no superman," and the main character is John Dorian (called J.D.) who is played by Zach Braff....who, with his amazing talents and good looks, would definitely be my Superman. XD